Every thorn has a Rose

The key is to not take deep breaths. To take small breaths, to lay as still as possible. Absolute dark helps.

There is the body and then there is Rose. The body is just that, a body that has required alot of pain to get right. Rose is always going, always growing, writing, I remember in the hospital borrowing a sharpie and taking some notes on my hand.

Morphine pain pumps are pretty sweet.

My Mom is my Mom. Meaning, she gave birth to me and I am thankful for that. She forgot she has two grand children once my sisters baby was born but that is her choice and not something I gotta dwell over or take on. When she comes to town it is for her newest grandchild. When my daughter asked me why grandma didn't come over I told her. In not so many words. Truth hurts but it really sets us free.

I love all the stages my kids went through, sure babies are fun, but I am biased, I love my kids.

My son is covered in a rash and sleeps all day. He made a little cross to put in the flag holder (that didn't have a flag in it) and that was really awesome of him.

I have found that if you don't depend on people you wont be disappointed. So few people are to be trusted, it is not that anything is wrong with them, it is just that the majority of people are so self consumed they are incapable of being trusted.

I picked some roses. I sleep. I wait for the thunderstorms to come. I keep dreaming of moving and finding my new home and packing and fitting my stuff in. Dunno how I end up in Chicago.

More likely to end up far far away from others, thats what satellite wifi is for, right?

Less people more creative goings on. Some fruit trees, some gardens, solitude.

I think the general population needs a television, I am happy without it. In the hospital the nurses were pushing watching tv, I had no desire to watch it. If I want to watch a show, I download it. No commercials.

Shawn and her group are partying it up this weekend. I tried to go but not dice with the free air miles.

Here comes Lydia again to get me to head outside in the heat and mosquitos, which I will do with a smile.

I am not sure where we are moving but we are, new friends, a family we make ourselves, a small bubble of society where everyone cares about each other helps.

Right now I am doing it all myself.